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I was goin thru all my shit yesturday and i found all the cds i ever got while booking, recieving demos, getting prereleased copies for my distro and just trading dmo cds, and i felt like listing them. hahah i have no clue why but heres the list of what i have:

The Marshees – Reclusive (Pre-Released)
Rythm Collision – Now (Pre-Released)
Cheifs – Holly West Crisis (Pre-Released)
External Menace – The Process Of Elimination (Pre-Released)
From Ashes Rise – Nightmares (Prerelease)
Denali (Pre-Released)
Stryk-9 – The New Breed (Pre-Released)
Common Enemy
Sixth Gate Demo
Bittermint Demo
Treason Demo
Bones Demo
Eyes Of Hate Demo
Infidel?/Castro! / Behold…The Arctopus Demo
OC Bombers Demo
Intentional Misues Demo
Hours For Stars Demo
The Aftermath Demo
Silverstein / Minus Sampler
The Ataris Tour Sampler
Quicksilver Dvd
A-F Records Sampler 1
Rise Records Sampler
Skratch Vol 1 Dvd
A Perfect Murder / A18 / Martyr AD / Scars Of Tommorow Sampler
Common Enemy Full Legnth
Terrorgruppe – Uber Amerika
Whorehouse Of Representatives Discography
Molotov Cocktail Full Legnth

This is only list 1 i have like 400 other cds i randomly got ill put them up later….

Heres To Community
Heres To Death
Heres To Friendship
Heres To Breath

Spazz Uses Ukalalies

Sometimes it takes people a while to realize what they’ve done to you or youve done to them, when is it my turn to get that everlasting word of reassurance i didnt do anything wrong? that simple word that means nothing on paper and nothing on a screen but when somone looks you in the eyes and sincerely says it you know it makes everything better, if a certain somone said this one word to me it would make me more then happy and i would feel all better again. i need this word to go on, i need this person to tell me this one word, to surpass everything this person put me thru all the anguish and pain i had to deal with from this person the word is sorry….

Lonely, bored, Tired.
No One. Ever.

I Should Take The Hint That Im Not Welcome.

:.(…..

Me = Dead

(I Hate This, I NEED To Get Out Of Here)
I was supposed to goto Ohio for the next 4 days, guess not.
It would of made me feel better, i need to get out of here.
So Bad…

Survey #5

(X) BEEN DRUNK
(X) SMOKED POT
(X) KISSED A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX
(_) KISSED A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX
(_) CRASHED A FRIEND’S CAR
(_) BEEN TO JAPAN
(X) RODE IN A TAXI
(X) HAD ANAL SEX
(X) BEEN IN LOVE
(X) HAD SEX
(X) HAD SEX IN PUBLIC
(x) BEEN DUMPED
(X) SHOPLIFTED
(X) BEEN FIRED
(X) BEEN IN A FIST FIGHT
(X) HAD A THREESOME
(X) SNEAKED OUT OF MY PARENT’S HOUSE
(X) BEEN TIED UP (SEXUALLY)
(X) BEEN CAUGHT MASTURBATING
(X) PISSED ON MYSELF
(_) HAD SEX WITH A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX
(_) BEEN ARRESTED
(_) MADE OUT WITH A STRANGER
(x) STOLE SOMETHING FROM MY JOB
(_) CELEBRATED NEW YEARS IN TIME SQUARE
(_) GONE ON A BLIND DATE
(_) HAD A CRUSH ON A TEACHER
(_) CELEBRATED MARDI-GRAS IN NEW ORLEANS
(_) BEEN TO EUROPE
(X) SKIPPED SCHOOL
(X) SLEPT WITH A CO-WORKER
(_) CUT MYSELF ON PURPOSE
(_) HAD SEX AT THE OFFICE
(_) BEEN MARRIED
(_) BEEN DIVORCED
(X) HAD SEX WITH MORE THAN ONE PERSON WITHIN THE SAME WEEK OR HAS THE PERSON THAT YOU WERE SEEING
(X) POSED NUDE
(_) GOT SOMEONE DRUNK JUST TO HAVE SEX WITH THEM
(_) HAD SEX WITH MY BOSS
(_) DATED MY ROOMMATE
(X) BEEN FISTED AND/OR HAVE NEVER FISTED ANYONE
(_) THROWN UP IN A BAR
(X) SLEPT WITH AN EX

Ugh.

I Dont Expect Anything More From Dave Harold
I Dont Expect Anything More From Alex
I Expect Way More From Chris
I Expect Way More From Erik Skum

All 4 of you are rediculous, why dont you talk nicley and well get this shit worked out. i expect the most from you, eric skum who is 30 and shud be able to talk things over instead of fighting with someone that ur almost twice the age of. Shame on you man, please have some common sense, talk to me calmly and ill gladly sit down and have a conversation with you. dave no i wotn, alex i kno u dont care honestly about the situation, your just pissed cos daves pissed and chris ur mad because u heard random stuff and you believe it. you should not be believing it after knowing me for 5 years you know i wouldnt do that and you know i was friends with eric the red. if for some reason eric the red ever reads this, i would never in my life ever call you a child molestor i know u are or were still dating that girl from back in the day, and im telling you now, i would never call you that, i had respect for you because i was always cool with you….. i wanna find out who said that, supposedly it was bloodbeat, and they were drunk off ther ass so how could they rememeber.

ugh i really need to leave long island people here are not cool.

jen run away with me to oregon…..

I Hate What?

Let It Go
Scrape It OFf
Cos Its too late to remedy
the situation thats passed your head
slipped right by
and ther much better off without you
the cloud that clouded their sunshine
glad i could help
glad i could be the hammer that would drive
the nail into tyhe wall of my downfall
hang your life
and those pictures of how you were
security replaced my portrait
i told you so
im learning to let go
leaning not to open up
learning not to share
not that you care
bad thoughts are all i have
so now go
live your life
turning back
turning to salt
you realize this was my fault
so ill lie here

I FUCKING hate you. I fucking HATE you. I fucking hate YOU

Fuck You…
Im at the point where im glad im not with you and that i can careless that were not together. but im at the point that i am disgust of you. liek those days you would go and stick his penis in your mouth and then come back and makeout with me. that is just fucking disgusting, feeding me lies about how you wanna get married but u want to fuck him at the same time? you disgust me. you really do. that is very slutty to do that, fucking 2 people at once. ::throws up:: fucking sickening. how can you call yourself a person after that? how can u say u have a heart after that. fucking your FIRST LOVE over for a douchebag that wears dresses. hahaha

not that i really care anymore about you, i just think your fucking disgusting.
lets leave it at this.

YOU DONT DESERVE LIFE.
YOU DONT DESERVE DEATH.

you know why?

BECAUSE YOU DESERVE NOTHING. I HOPE YOU FEEL THIS FOREVER. BECAUSE WHEN YOU REGRET WHAT YOU DID ITS NOT GONNA BE PRETTY.

GO FUCK YOURSELF.

OR GO FUCK DOUCHEBAG, AND MAKE OUT WITH SOMEONE ELSE 2 SECONDS LATER

DISGUSTING

::end (truth speaking) steam blowing session::

Outside Looking Down On Me

How Could I Be?
And Lay Them Down