I feel I am still missing something from this 56 piece puzzle…. but do not know how to carry out the reasoning or the debate of how to go out and partake in the finding of this grammatical piece.

I need to find somone who shares what I feel. Im not talking about a girlfriend, Just somone I can look at and say: You know where I stand and I love you for it.

If I take the time and trust that I will be guided to this person, then the anxiety and torture of waiting should be gone, right?

Right?

wrong. I need to learn how to control it.

Im learning, Just believe that I can do it.

Day 5 report suckas!

Yeah whats up guys, Im still at school. So far a lot of cool things have happened so far. i met a bunch of cool people. So far Ive met:

> Brandon: My bunkmate so to speak haha. Hes a good guy, his family owns a dairy and cattle farm.
> Nick: Nick is the crazy anarcho punk you always seem to see at a church, I think hes a great guy because of it. He also agrees that Headnoise is a bad band. swell.
> Rachel: Rachel and I started talking on a weird measure. I saw her one day and I said to myself, I would really like to meet this girl. Two days later, In lunch She came and sat at my table and started talking to me. Ever since then When I see her I stop to have a conversation. Im not looking for a relationship or anything, But that just really amazes me. Somone is doing wonders in my life. Its only been 5 days!
> Mark: My dorm steward, he is an amazing guy. I think he is one of those people that you know right off the bat you can confide in. He seems to have a grasp on life and if I need help in a certain aspect of my life, I think I can count on him to be there.

Ive also:
Become a security guard (yes haha, I never thought I would be, but this is good for me. I need a form of discipline and like reassurance. Having people count on me is enough for me.
Deleted my Ipod. I think im going to follow the rules of this school, Its in my best interest. So I took off all the secular bands off my Ipod, Since that was the only source of music I brought with me, Plus one of the rules state: No secular music allowed on campus. So I will abide.

Im glad Im not in NY anymore. So I dont have to deal with all the people that bring me down

On the other hand I miss a handfull of people

goodbye!

4:30 in the morning tommorow!

Then off to California!
<333

I think I am actually really sad about this….

I will miss some of you too much

Goodnite, Goodbye.

Im glad…

Im Glad….
Im leaving on saturday
Im glad I saw Doug and Mike today
Im glad Emily Stopped talking to me. *edit: ok kinda, I know its for the better. hah.*
Im glad Im going to California
Im glad I Get to sleep with my puppy.
Im glad I saw Christina, Cory and Tony.
Im glad I will talk to a bunch of you and write you letters

Ill miss you.

die in your sleep with the sky at your feet.

Hung out with Cory, Christina and Tony tonite. Probably for the last time in a while. It makes me really sad, because although I have numerous amounts of excuses why i have to leave, I can find so many excuses as to why I should stay. Although I act like a jerk a lot, I still love you guys very much. I will miss you dearly and I hope when I get backI could see you guys again with smiling faces and just be able to be happy to get crazy hugs.

Its so far away, but really only physically. I will call you guys no matter what

3 more days!

I have been thinking, I think I am excited to move out to Cali, I get to see all the places I used to go before I moved. Were going to:

Balboa Park: This is my most favorite place in California. Its this massive botanical garden / national park That is filled with over 35 free mueseums. My favorite was the history of man. I remember going there when I was 9 and laughing at the cave men statues because they had small penis’s (hah) I used to goto camp that was located in a canyon right next to Balboa park. We used to sleep in different camp sites and would have to make our own little forts to get good marks and stuff. It was really fun

In and Out Burger: They have by far the best food known to man. Its a huge burger thats like 1/2 pound of meat, lettuce, tomato, onion, cheddar cheese, a toasted bun and covered in 1000 island dressing. mmmm. I doubt I’d like it now, but I just remember it being really good.

The San Diego Zoo: We used to go here every thursday, because we had yearly tickets that were 12 dollars each, if you were under 12 of course. Which I was. I used to love the escalators that are like 6 stories tall going up a big mountain. Although it was 16 dollars a person so we didnt really go on it, the skyrail was awesome, took you acroos the park which was liek 3 miles wide.

Seaport Village: This place was basically one big marina, with a big park on the boardwalk. They used to have tons of artists hanging out around the park painting, while therewas like a concert going on almost every night. It was a really cool place.

In all honestly, Long Island and New york is not for me. I need to live on the west coast. Although I say that and I wish all the people I really care about would move out there too I know its just not possible. Im sorry to the people who really dont want me to leave, but its what I gotta do. I have to move on with life, by staying in Long Island, that will never get done. I thank you all for being there for me, a lot of you helped me out durning rough times and stuck by my side through everything. I love all of you. I hope we will continue to speak to one another and not loose contact. Post your address up here or email it to me at skyatyourfeet@yahoo.com and I can send you letters. Then, when I find out mine, I will send it to you!

Im leaving in 3 days, Although some of the most important people I wont be able to see, I wish you guys all luck in your travels and hope you stay safe.

- “We’re in this together, and thats okay”

new journal. friends only => skyatyourfeet here!

this one will be way better cos its friends only

woooo

leave a message ill add you!

4 more days
<3

please do it?

metallic man

New journal. Getting away from this kid that is stalking me. He needs help. Im keeping this one positive. This is for all you jerks that would rather read about how I am doing in California rather then calling me and letting me hear your voice

go!

dont let me sleep,
everythings alrite now….