3 Seperate Hymnals, Spare The Organs

Sometimes I feel like what I am doing is only just pushing the problem further
away then actually being able to analyze it upfront. Besides the fact that I also
cant because i tend to overanalyze things. I am glad that we have these expierences
in our lives because we learn from them, not to mention the fact that i enjoy them.
Because at least I get to converse with someone I like to think about. But I am being
too hasty and I am being too selfish, because instead of thinking how the other person
will take it and if i will hurt them, I just decide to say it. I dont take time to
digest something and then let it out in a concise and coherent manner. I just tend to
screw things up a little more then they were before. If someone wants to tell me
something, they will tell me. Why do I feel the need to try to suck the life out of
them and get the answer from them? I’d just be better off leaving them alone because
then it would save us both trouble. I’m just tired of living that life where all I do
is cause pain and trouble for others. I woke up this morning with a big knot in my stomach,
and i really dont know why. which just leads me to think that i just botched it up more
then it was before. and Im sorry for that. I just get caught up in all this garbage that
I dont need to, especially over the phone(because when i speak on the phone i cant tell how
the person is feeling) I need to stop worrying about me and start caring for others.

I got this book, called the irresistable revolution, which is about a church called the
simple way(www.thesimpleway.org) which is showing us that a revolution in the history of
the church does not start with the expensive churches and the rich church goers and the
middle class familes that confess their sins. A revolution inside the church begins on the
streets. Jesus is in the poor people, Jesus is the poor people. When Jesus talks about
loving your neighbor as yourself he is not talking about sending money to an organization
to help the homeless, hes talking about getting out there and being friends to them and
talking and loving and living life with them as if they were your brothers and sisters in
Christ. reading this book makes me not want to come back to bible college, because bible
college is a luxury that ends up in me getting a worthless associates degree and a full
2 years of expierences that does not amount to the mouths that $10,000 could of fed, or
the numerous amounts of bodies it could of clothed or the amounts of churches in africa it
could of built. I might not come back to ccbc after this next semester, I might go and
then I might move on with my life to something new. I might want to go join up with the
simple life. Im not sure yet. They are a home in one of the poorest districts in
pennsylvannia, and they open up their home to kids all day, they plant gardens, they make
their own food, they renovate abandonded houses and they give familes a chance to fellowship
with the Lord. This is not something that needs an associates to be able to expierence, and
to be honest, its so much more of a day by day miracle when you dont walk away with a degree
because that would just prove the Lord provided. This is something that has been on my heart
for a long time now, in the sense of the bible college thing, not the simple life thing, and
I think i might just go ahead and do it. The worst that could happen is I just come back
later for another semester. If that would ever be the case.

So when I say that i shouldnt be upset about these relationship issues, Im serious. Dead
serious. there are way more important things in this world then me being comfortable. Our
christian brothers and sister are dying, not just from starvation and from poverty, but also
from the war that is so unjustly fought. They are also dying from lack of love from the people
that are supposed to play a major part in their lives, us as the church. nothing else matters
but others being happy. Thats all I care about. If i ended up living in my car or even living
in a box for 3 years just so a group of homeless people can have what i have, then so be it.
Thats what I want from this life. Satisfaction knowing I made someone happy. screw possesions,
i mean sure there are some things in this world I really like, like my camera, my record
collection, and my newly bought CED player, but other then that, its all crap and unneeded junk.
And even that stuff i like is crap and uneeded junk. Wait sorry, and I am in love with Tony, so
he is also up there too.

Lastly,
Life is too short to waste on feeling bad for ourselves or being unsure about things, the
worst that happens is we make a mistake, but that doesnt take us out of God’s arms, it only
takes us closer. When God lets you in on this big fiasco of utter nonsense to me, please
let me know. Until then just realize that until its over we both still have a part to
play for each other. Please just assess the situation before any resolution is made.

Have a good day
- Jeremy

Amazing Kobeys!

Hey I found something amazing for 40 bucks today.

A CED Video Player and 150 CED Video Discs.

CED Video Discs Are The Prequel To the laserdiscs, they arent as good as a quality, but still a major quality degrading from dvds, i love it. its like your watching it on the big screen, with all the fuzz and flicks and stuff, its really cool!

Pictures:
Player:

Movies 1:

Movies 2:

The list of movies include:
9 To 5
10
48 Hours
20,000 Leagues Under The Sea
Adam’s Rib
A Day At The Races
Airforce
Airplane
American Giggolo
A Night At The Opera
Annie Hall
An Officer and A Gentleman
Any Which Way You Can
Apocalypse Now
Arthur
A Shot In The Dark
Backroads
Being There
Best Friends
Big Bad Mama
Blazing Saddles
Blow Out
Butch Cassidy And The Sundance Kid
Carnal Knowledge
Casablanca
Cat Ballou
Chariots Of Fire
Chinatown
Citizen Kane
Class
Das Boot
Deathwish
Diamonds Are Forever
Disney Cartoon Parade Volume 2
Disney Cartoon Parade Volume 4
Dressed To Kill
Easy Money x2
Easy Rider
Escape From Alcatraz
Farewell My Lovely
Friendly Persuasion
Foul Play
Gandi x2
GI Blues
Goldfinger
Grapes Of Wrath
High Noon
High Road To China
History Of The World Part 1
Hooper
Hud
Lassiter
Mash
Movie! Movie!
Neighbors
North Dallas Forty
On Golden Pond
On The Waterfront
Patton
Play It Again Sam
Private Benjamin
Police Academy
Raging Bull
Raiders Of The Lost Ark
Reds
Roman Holiday
Sands Of Iwo Jima
Seargent York
Shane
Shogun
Silver Streak
Six Pack
Spellbound
Starting Over
Stir Crazy
Stripes
Tank
The Absent Minded Professor
The Apple Dumpling Gang
The Bad News Bears
The Billion Dollar Hobo
The Black Stallion
The Boys From Brazil
The Dirty Dozen
The Four Seasons
The Fugitive: The Final Episode
The Graduate
The Great Escape
The Great Locomotive Chase
The Kentuckian
The Longest Yard
The Love Bug
The Magnificent Seven
The Odd Couple
The Philadelphia Story
The Pink Panther
The Pride Of The Yankees
The Producers
The Quiet Man
The Sea Hawk
The Sea Wolves
The Shootist
The Spy Who Loved Me
The Sting
The Verdict
The Wild Bunch
Three Days Of The Condor
Tootsie
Tora! Tora! Tora!
Treasure Island
True Grit
Urban Cowboy
Used Cars
Victor/Victoria
Victory At Sea

friggin cant wait to watch these.

you have every right to be, angry with me (join the club)

I’ve been thinking about all the instances in my life lately,  and Ive begun to think I really miss a lot of the things and people that were in my past.  It really makes me sad to think theyre all gone and they have either moved on or have grown so numb to anything that it would be utterly impossible to try to reach them once again.  Im tired of living for myself,  I know i do daily.  There are more important things to worry about, like my friends and others who choose to ignore what i am trying to say to them.  So ill just keep waiting in hope that one day they will come around and that they would want to speak to me again.  Because life just sucks without these people and holding grudges absolutely sucks, so i would hope just one day they come around

I finally got my

and now I would like to get
<– 500mm HD Mirror Lens – $104.95
<– Tokina 19-35mm Lens Kit – $149.95
<– 52mm Close Up Lens Set – $25.00
<– 0.42X Fisheye Lens – $38.49
<– SIGMA 70-300mm DG Lens – $114.95

Buy Them for me?

wooord.